katielou

is it all in the nose?

posted Thursday, 12 June 2008
Apropos of I can't quite remember what, I had a conversation a while ago with Jane and Elliott about how a nose job can utterly confuddle people's sense of their identity in a way that they didn't expect, even given the nose they wanted. I've seen a documentary talking about it, and Jane and Elliott know someone who is almost unrecognisable after surgery - I know when it was, it was after a piece in the paper about someone publishing a kiddies book about mommy going into hospital to be made beautifuller - and how much more of a self esteem issue that kind of cosmetic surgery is than a physical one. I suppose you so subconsciously identify with all the bits and pieces parts that make up your whole, whether you like them much or not, that it would be really hard to imagine, even if you did want to change some bits, how it would really make you look and feel.
Some point at the weekend, when SL was playing up, I managed to change skins on my av. I couldn't find the one that I was wearing, and I wanted to try things on to set up a freebie box for beginners, and stupidly I changed one. Only a skin, not a shape, but somehow, something went awry. I'm not sure what, but something happened to my face shape, or my chin pointyness, or my nose. I don't even know whether one or the other, or all three. But I cannot get back to what I looked like before. At least, roughly so, I guess I'll be as recognisable as ever, but it's so frustrating to look and think, no, that's not quite how it was last week, and really not for the life of me work out quite how, and how to fix it. And that's only my avatar..... not that I was planning any plastic surgery anyway, thankfully Cool